πᾶς ὁ ἀρνούμενος τὸν υἱὸν οὐδὲ τὸν πατέρα ἔχει ὁ ὁμολογῶν τὸν υἱὸν καὶ τὸν πατέρα ἔχει 24 ὑμεῖς ὃ ἠκούσατε ἀπ’ ἀρχῆς ἐν ὑμῖν μενέτω ἐὰν ἐν ὑμῖν μείνῃ ὃ ἀπ’ ἀρχῆς ἠκούσατε καὶ ὑμεῖς ἐν τῷ υἱῷ καὶ ἐν τῷ πατρὶ μενεῖτε 25 καὶ αὕτη ἐστὶν ἡ ἐπαγγελία ἣν αὐτὸς ἐπηγγείλατο ἡμῖν τὴν ζωὴν τὴν αἰώνιον

Stop playing pretend. Whoever creates their own Christ doesn’t see the true Father. Only when one acknowledges the Son as he truly is do they see the real Father.  Remember what you’ve witnessed from his first appearance.  I know how difficult it may be to remember his first words, but if you keep them close to you the Father and Son will keep you close to them. Don’t be paranoid, He promised us life beyond time!